Been the longest I’ve not blogged in 7 months and longest break in several years!

I’ve had so much of a difficult year with health, scrutiny online sharing awful things that I don’t want to be, I’ve had infections, sleep struggles, and recently got a month suspension on PlayStation.

So ready for a refresh next year hopefully a lot better things to come I need it more than average people which most won’t believe but the online drama I’ve had has disturbed me tremendously.

A lot of others would’ve committed suicide by now I just hold hope because my gaming comforts me even though I got in trouble on psn I can start over at least I have shows/movies to catch up on and I badly want a relationship.

Life throws a lot of curve balls that will either obliterate someone badly or get a home run with success, I need the latter to occur!

Crazy how I took 7 months away from blogging partly cause of writers block and I do other things. I need the brain cells to flourish in me for brilliant wording!

Autism is a massive root to my problems I wonder if others deal with the hell I go through or if I’m one of the odd ones out that is extremely unlucky in life. Whatever though 2024 should be so much than the year I’ve had!

Crazy how much madness has been happening!

I’ve had numerous sleep struggles on and off lately for weeks, lots happening with my mom including taxes, bullied on Snapchat recently, I’ve had several people nag me for money that I don’t have and I was yelled at which is one of the worst triggers for an aspie at least for me!

Badly in need of a miracle or several, I’m so ready for some blessings. I haven’t felt so cursed in years even my mom had nearly everything go wrong for at least 5 hours.

On positive notes at least my gaming has gone well and I have a very happy cat. I’m mostly healthy I’ve improved my stomach aches that were common just not much else.

Maybe I can hope for some exceptional peace from now on, tremendously uncertain with 3 hours sleep though. Hope anyone that sees this is doing solid enough lately.

I should blog more but I get massive writers block and various health nonsense

Seems to be loads of spirals that life tends throw a lot of curve balls at least for me and maybe it’s like that for a lot of people too. I’ve had a paranormal amount of off days that need to be cured asap!

Within these peculiar mashed up days I have a portion of peace and more elevated stress scattered through my cerebellum. I realize there’s a brilliance to some of my life despite unsettling vibes.

As one of my favorite metaphors is portaling through life which probably isn’t a word but I have fun. In my own introverted bizarre trapped life it’s mostly a great life, I just need more out of it.

I feel more nourishment though from a glamorous amount of sleep maybe that can happen soon and maybe I don’t make sense I just felt like down pouring some flow of vocabulary to the world. Sometimes there’s a spark of genius from me that I wish could be a famous known thing for now it’s like this and I love any of my supporters!

Been awhile since I’ve entered this dimension

Sometimes I’m quite sure I’m cursed cause more bad happens to me than good. Maybe I’ve done several things that cause bad luck when I was younger or maybe it’s an autism thing to just screw up!

I don’t have enough humble people that help me and my family especially when we desperately need it which reminds me of the most complex puzzles/quantum physics that kinda helps me cope when I think about it. My writing is comforting as well even if it’s peculiar I love the way it is!

Another note is I used to blog more I absolutely hate the word excuse but I’m sure any reason I come up with is one although maybe I shouldn’t say that cause I get really into other stuff I enjoy too. Regardless I love anyone that supports me especially since I’m difficult more so than most people on earth.

Hmm what else can flow out of my stem cells? I can try a little bit more to be more positive even if it’s brutally hard. Some aspies tend to overthink I’m an expert at that one that’s about all I got for now.